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Why I Didn’t Post on Facebook About My Anniversary

This year marked my seventh wedding anniversary. It means that my husband and I have successfully avoided killing one another for over nine years. Normally, I’ll post something sweet on Facebook celebrating our anniversary. Those types of posts are rare. My husband and I don’t often say things over Facebook that we can’t just say […]


Dear Husband

When Your Husband Struggles with Addiction

Dear husband, I want to tell you I’m angry. I want to say I’m disappointed. My heart hurts, and some days feel so long that it’s like two rolled into one. I’m lonely and tired and sad, so, so sad. I want to scream and stomp my feet in an epic toddler tantrum. You know […]


2 Years to Stability

Today has been hard. As a new mom who is bipolar, hard is really just part of life when you have a spouse who is also bipolar, but today was harder than normal. After our middle daughter’s Thanksgiving play, my husband and I headed to his psychiatrist’s office. Normally, he sees his doctor alone, but […]


Dear Baby

Dear baby, I’m so sorry. It’s all I can say to you as I stare down at your perfect face. Your little hands are clenched into tiny tight fists as you wiggle and gurgle and coo, but you don’t know why I’m crying instead of smiling back. I’m sorry that your daddy isn’t here to […]


Separation is Like a Lifejacket

The past two days have been the hardest I’ve had to face in a very long time. Emotionally, I swing wildly from regret and doubt to acceptance and relief. I simultaneously feel guilty that my kids are now living in a home where their parents are in the process of separating, and then I go […]